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This poem is dedicated to my lovely Nicole.

Familiar Voices and Smiles
By David Timothy Sheehan
Dedicated to Nicole Stankavage

As I sit and hear that sweet voice answering the telephone
Each time I hear that sweet, lovely voice a smile falls upon my face
I thought this action was forever lost
Smiling
Which I have not done in months
Not for anything meaningful anyway
As my eyes scan your photograph
My heart fills with such a tingle
Something I have not felt since Christmas
The tears, and empty promises are gone from my life
Maybe not forever, but at least for now
Maybe my heart didnt grow cold after all
After what "She" did to me, destroyed all that was sacred in my life
But now I have meaning in my life
There is a point for me to keep on going
Never before have I trusted anyone, like I trust my love
Never did any name sound as beautiful as....
Nicole

This was written for you my love.  All of this poem is true, and I hope it makes you smile.

"A Shattered State of Being"

I try to pick up the shards I have for a life
Cutting myself on all the broken pieces
My hands are torn to shreds upon the shattered pieces
What was once a full complete life
Has now become nothing but broken thoughs and tattered memories
Lest we forget
We must try hard to keep our lives
However meaningless they may seem
Together, if not complete than in broken pieces, put aside in a small box
I look in the mirror once again
I loathe what I see
Some kind of ogre staring back at me
My fist flies towards the mirror
Leaving behind broken glass
500 Reflections bloody reflections
Shattered, just like my state of being

"The cold winter air sends a chill down my spine"
This Poem is Dedicated to my favorite poet, Charles Bukowski

As I walk down the street
Puffing on my cigarette
A chill goes down my spine
I think to myself
Can things really get better?
Can they?
I wave to the girl across the street
She smiles at me
To think someone actually took the time to look at me
I thought that was a thing of the past
Nobody really looks at me anymore
As I realize
The only person to ever fuck me
Hurt me the most
Left me for another man
After all the things we've been through
She's gone
Did I really love her?
But it is true I wasnt ready for what she wanted
I'm planning on going to school
For Another year at most
I can't handle getting married to someone like that
Someone with so much criticism
Who wont let me see my female friends
Jealousy
I suppose I am guilty of that too
My cigarette is down to the filter
I take the last drag
Gone
Just like Marissa
Just like every other girl I knew

"The smoke that lingers in the air"

As I sit, with a lit cigarette
I come to think about all that has past
Where did the time go, Where has our friendship gone
You tell me that you love me
I just cannot believe such a thing anymore
I hear from others you can't talk to me anymore
I wonder if you are that shallow
that breaking my heart has made you think our friendship is gone
I think you are about as shallow, as this grave I dug for myself
If you love me, why do you fall away
Why must you lie to me
Where has this love gone
Are you even the same person I once knew
As I inhale deeply, and think
I slowly let out the smoke through my nostils
It looks like I have a fire inside of myself
This never ending burning
This hurt because you are abandoning me
As I take the last drag
I flick the cigarette into the street
I realized you have just washed away from me
Just like that cigarette washes into the sewer